Tonight I feel a bit sad. Where do the years go?
It all started with my OH having another hernia, a bout of bad stomach and the general feeling of always having something or other wrong nowadays.
I then had to start searching through my photos to try and find a half decent head shot to put on my season ticket that is due at the end of the month. Could I find one!!!
Where did all the years go and when did I start to look 'old' after all I still feel the same inside. What is it about growing up/old that the body has to deteriorate as well. If the mind can stay the same then why can't the body :-)
When I look back over the photos the years seem to have whizzed by and with them the youthfulness.
I long for the youthful body yet to retain the knowledge and experience that I have reached so far. But then I guess we all do that. Am I ready to hang up my desire for fun and enjoyment and settle into middle age/old age - you bet I'm not, but perhaps I don't have control over that.
Playing with the grandkids I have fun and try to pretend that I can still throw them around and play with them like before but afterwards the aches and pains prove to me that I should really ease up a bit. But I don't want to give in. I don't want to become 'old'.
My dad was always known as Peter Pan and perhaps that is where I take after him - a desire to stay young.....