October 2020!! I cannot believe that I have let my blog stagnate for 2 ½ years. That is until I realised that I had plummeted into depression and self-pity over the way my life had changed and felt that there was nothing worth writing about anymore. So where do I begin? Or rather where did I end before this new beginning?
And then, not a death, but the dying and changing of my relationship with my husband, lover and best friend. Nothing was the same, everything was turned around. I was no longer a wife but a mother, a carer, housekeeper, handyman, cook, gardener, decorator, worker (to finance all that State Pensions would not provide) and anything else that needed to be done. Life as I knew it no longer existed and my world was confined to four walls,
One of my besties, Millie, only 8 years older than me and who had suddenly deteriorated.
· My Mum – a victim of COVID and far away from us so that she died alone in a hospital bed as we were in lockdown and by the time it was serious enough for us to be allowed to see her it was too late because of the travel time.
· My furry soul mate rescue dog, Freddy, we had all been through so much and he was my treasured friend, from being a playmate to our other young dog to having to be put to sleep all within 3 days. I held him and talked to him telling him everything was going to be alright as they gave him the injection. As his head slowly lowered a part of me went with him.