I have to admit to being rather scared that at the age of 61 (nearly 62) I have taken on the sole responsibility of an 8 year mortgage to enable us to buy a home.
It is the return of the 'what-ifs'.
What if I am made redundant, what if I am ill, what if my other eye gets a cataract.
I guess being responsible for the lives of two others - one human and one canine - is a very scary part of life and a position that I am not used to being in. But here we go, one day at a time, trusting that everything will be ok.
I seem to have spent the past three years taking on the role of decision maker and problem solver - not a role that I am naturally born for but hey ho - go with the flow...