While sitting here working at my computer my desktop background changed to a photo of my kitchen in Mallorca and I stopped and stared.
For five minutes or so I allowed myself to gaze at the photo and remember how the kitchen had been in a terrible state when we bought the house and how the blind was one of the first things we changed. Next we changed the cupboards and rearranged the kitchen to allow for more cupboard space, our fridge freezer and an extra under the worktop freezer.
While pondering on this I also remembered how stressed out I had got with all the pressure of being the breadwinner, the organiser and everything else that went along with that move. So much so that I forgot to live in the moment. I didn't appreciate what I had around me and what I was experiencing. My mind was too busy thinking about the next thing I had to do.
Now I realise just what I missed.
I missed enjoying the moment (even with all the stresses and strains) and now that moment has gone. I missed enjoying our lovely Spanish home and now that has gone too.
Too busy to live in the now, too busy thinking and not enough time enjoying, too busy to remember how short life is and how we should enjoy the here and now for when we turn around it is gone and all that we had or have is for nothing.
Life is for experiencing and enjoying and I have always spent too much time worrying to appreciate that.
Hope I can remember that in the future.
Ok back to work now!